that moment when someone who wants to “be with you forever” even though they’ve broken your heart before, says they’re leaning towards it again. that’s a good one. i guess that’s why they say family first. i’ve missed out on a ton of family time and a ton of me time and that’s not happening anymore. i am truly blessed and no one is ever going to make me feel like i don’t want to be functioning on this earth anymore. i used to be independent, that me is coming back, in full force. i’m a good person, i just give myself too hard of a time, but fuck that. i’m young and pretty and on my way to a career that i love, so i’ll be just fine. life is precious. i want to be who i was this summer, and i’ll be damned if anyone gets in my way, ever again.
I have wanted to kill myself a hundred times, but somehow I am still in love with life.